A 11 2004     |     standing on the ledge called nerve

things are not quite smooth lately, seems like for every mile of easy ride another 5 miles of bumpy roads ahead.

work has been not-that-great. had a rough week, the contractor doesnt want to do anything and i tried to help but ended up getting back-fired. i am trying to do things i am not familiar with and not in  my scope, but the bottom line is i should be more careful and i messed up. kinda felt like an ass abt it.. there are so much i dont know in this field and i know it. its just frustrating i am not performing at a level i would love to be on. there are many excuses but i am not using them.. i just need to be more focused and concentrated.

on a fairer note, the glorious countdown has began. 20 more days and i will be making my glorious home-coming.when i was on the plane 4 mons ago i wonder when would i be there again, never expected to be this soon.

n i will be seeing her again too, that makes me nervous. or rather, lost. funny u always find right things at the right time but at the wrong place, or the wrong things at the right time at the right place. or the other way, its so hard to align those 3 elements.

whatever

happy easter everyone!

A 05 04     |     Bday Candy

O i forgot, happy birthday candy... my best friend candy of 4 yrs already, always make soup for me, thanks for everything!!!

and i look like a smart ass in glasses... a dumb ass trying to be a smart ass